I've been afraid of fear. Fear itself. I thought it was people, or events or unknown stuff that I was fearing. I thought it was doing things that were new or a belief that I would not be able to show up with myself, that I was afraid of.
I attached my fear to events, people, emotions, future thoughts, past thoughts and
all kinds of whatever's. There is another level. Being afraid of fear. Judging fear. Blaming fear. Not wanting fear to exist or to be felt.
Children are fearless. Totally and completely fear-free, except in moments. But that isn't fear, that is "Huh?" or momentary scare---a physical body's natural and instinctive response to protecting itself or someone else.
Fear is an entity that is taught. Unaware Fear keeps me separate from you, from others, from myself. Fear, quite naturally, feeds on more fear. Fear is a teacher, a mentor, a reminder that everything is whole. Everyone out there is also filled with fear. Fear communicates and recognizes fear anywhere. It feeds on it. It is not bad nor good. Sometimes, fear hangs out in body symptoms, or recycling thoughts.
There are few words for the fear. What is its purpose? Fear takes us over, either in thoughts, or body symptoms.Or both. We cannot fight our way out of it. It is not meant to be fought out of. It is to be recognized. Even then, fear will step in and drop out of sight and awareness, leaving only its shadow to continue its evolution and purpose.
Is fear evil? No. Is fear an enemy? No. Anger is filled with fear. Love is filled with fear. Fear that I will lose the love feeling. I even fear, as these words come through me, that I will not be able to see fear from the outside, or ever be free of it. Or to observe it, yet not being part of it.
Fear is almost like air, or oxygen, or food. And the food is the belief and familiarity of fear in the body and thoughts. What is its purpose? What is its purpose? How do I separate myself from believing in fear as an entity, and a natural daily world experience?
It tends to seep in without warning. Yet there is a warning. The warning is
the fear itself. The thoughts that surround the fear. Fear enters through learned beliefs and familiarity of those beliefs. Children are free of it. They do not naturally carry it in their bodies until they "believe they should" They Almost feel guilty if there is an absence of guilt, or fear, or what they think they should feel.
Who or what, is fear-free? (Free of fear). What exists in the world around us that is fear-free? Most Children at birth are, and people unexposed to the daily life and ritual of women and men-made beliefs,
Who is fear? What is it as an entity? How do I free myself from fear, yet be afraid at times of what is happening now, in the moment? Fear is like a form of government that controls its subjects. If I believe this, now what? What actions can I take instantly when I want to step away from a familiar fear sensation that I[ve learned to believe is necessary, familiar and natural,.
Even right now in this moment, I can feel the familiar fear within me? It is like a glue that holds me in place. I have to either scream it away, cry it away or anger it away, or stop believing it, even for moments.
Maybe my first step is to realize what I just realized. Fear thought steps in now to inform me that there really is no answer. "You are fooling yourself. You are
stuck with it," is says. .
But, my awareness of this process, to this point, is enough. It is enough. It is enough.
The rest of the information for fear freedom, comes in silently at night, while sleeping or suddenly, unexpectedly, without warning. Fear has a natural purpose, like a petty tyrant that will remain in control until recognized and appreciated as a teacher - like a martial art of awareness.
I have taken it out of the shadows, my shadows. There is now some light on the subject.
"I'm not afraid, fear is." This is a good beginning, and maybe end.
I attached my fear to events, people, emotions, future thoughts, past thoughts and
all kinds of whatever's. There is another level. Being afraid of fear. Judging fear. Blaming fear. Not wanting fear to exist or to be felt.
Children are fearless. Totally and completely fear-free, except in moments. But that isn't fear, that is "Huh?" or momentary scare---a physical body's natural and instinctive response to protecting itself or someone else.
Fear is an entity that is taught. Unaware Fear keeps me separate from you, from others, from myself. Fear, quite naturally, feeds on more fear. Fear is a teacher, a mentor, a reminder that everything is whole. Everyone out there is also filled with fear. Fear communicates and recognizes fear anywhere. It feeds on it. It is not bad nor good. Sometimes, fear hangs out in body symptoms, or recycling thoughts.
There are few words for the fear. What is its purpose? Fear takes us over, either in thoughts, or body symptoms.Or both. We cannot fight our way out of it. It is not meant to be fought out of. It is to be recognized. Even then, fear will step in and drop out of sight and awareness, leaving only its shadow to continue its evolution and purpose.
Is fear evil? No. Is fear an enemy? No. Anger is filled with fear. Love is filled with fear. Fear that I will lose the love feeling. I even fear, as these words come through me, that I will not be able to see fear from the outside, or ever be free of it. Or to observe it, yet not being part of it.
Fear is almost like air, or oxygen, or food. And the food is the belief and familiarity of fear in the body and thoughts. What is its purpose? What is its purpose? How do I separate myself from believing in fear as an entity, and a natural daily world experience?
It tends to seep in without warning. Yet there is a warning. The warning is
the fear itself. The thoughts that surround the fear. Fear enters through learned beliefs and familiarity of those beliefs. Children are free of it. They do not naturally carry it in their bodies until they "believe they should" They Almost feel guilty if there is an absence of guilt, or fear, or what they think they should feel.
Who or what, is fear-free? (Free of fear). What exists in the world around us that is fear-free? Most Children at birth are, and people unexposed to the daily life and ritual of women and men-made beliefs,
Who is fear? What is it as an entity? How do I free myself from fear, yet be afraid at times of what is happening now, in the moment? Fear is like a form of government that controls its subjects. If I believe this, now what? What actions can I take instantly when I want to step away from a familiar fear sensation that I[ve learned to believe is necessary, familiar and natural,.
Even right now in this moment, I can feel the familiar fear within me? It is like a glue that holds me in place. I have to either scream it away, cry it away or anger it away, or stop believing it, even for moments.
Maybe my first step is to realize what I just realized. Fear thought steps in now to inform me that there really is no answer. "You are fooling yourself. You are
stuck with it," is says. .
But, my awareness of this process, to this point, is enough. It is enough. It is enough.
The rest of the information for fear freedom, comes in silently at night, while sleeping or suddenly, unexpectedly, without warning. Fear has a natural purpose, like a petty tyrant that will remain in control until recognized and appreciated as a teacher - like a martial art of awareness.
I have taken it out of the shadows, my shadows. There is now some light on the subject.
"I'm not afraid, fear is." This is a good beginning, and maybe end.
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